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Dear ex: 
    It's been many years since we have been separated, and honestly, I am kind of glad that we're apart. It's not that I hated you, I liked you, and I like you now. But the problem is that I didn't like you like THAT, and I could tell you felt the same way. It was really because people said we should have been together. You're still a friend to me regardless of what happened when we were together, and I hope that you are living prosperously. 

Dear self:
    It will be good in the end. You're working long. You're working hard. You're working through the pressures. You'll go through with it. Don't let anyone talk you out of going, including yourself. You have too much at stake. Just keep thinking about what you are working for, and it will come for you in the end.

Dear dad:
    I know we're not the closest father and son. That alone has actually haunted me for years. I remember having nightmares about you replacing me, or something happening and you just abandoning me afterward. In these past years, though, while we still aren't as close as I like, I think we're as close as we can get. Overall, I'm thankful that you have supported me with my college and such in recent years. I know you are trying to help me out with things, but I feel you don't know me enough to know what's right, as sad as it sounds. Think about it; you don't know what kinda books I like, the future I'm planning for, my feats from my earlier years, or even a tenth of my friends. A lot of that is vice versa, as you were gone for a long time in my life and I didn't get to know you all that well the few weeks you were with us before flying away again. Regardless though, I know you tried to seal that by living with me and trying to make amends, and for that alone I'm forever thankful. No matter what, even if we're not that close, you are my father and I will always love you.

Dear mom:
    I want to thank you for standing by me (even if times you went a bit over the edge, though that could just be me). I know you still have regrets from when I was a child, and you want Colby to not go through the same thing. Ever since I've known you, actually, you've been hot-headed and stubborn, and at times hard to convince on things, and you still are those things today. And I would not want you to be any different. Despite everything that has happened, you never let go of me, Jordan or Colby. When we were at risk of being taken away, you stood by us to the end. No matter what happened in life, you had our interest at heart, and have done what you could to give us whatever love and kindness as you can. Today, you seem to be having trouble letting go of me. A lot of the measures you go to keep me really do tend to be a bit overzealous, though I have one thing to say; mom, no matter what, you will always be my mother. You will always be the friend that helped me grow up into the man I am today, and you'll always be the one who helped me smile as a kid. Though I am now grown and aged, and I am too big for that crib, and no longer need any help with going on, you will always be in my heart.
I love you forever,
I like you for always,
as long as I'm living,
my mommy you'll be.

Dear crush:
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Dear school:
    I salute your old position, when you actually thought of the kids when I was enrolled. I abhor you in your current state; despite being a Christian school, you ironically looked more into finances, and less into the well-being of your students. In my last years enrolled, you were a living hell. I have since let go of my past with you, but looking at you as a critic, I wouldn't have my worst enemies let their kids attend your school. You have fallen low, and unless you have a major comeback, I truly believe you need to be shut down for your abuse of your students and their money.

Dear siblings:
    My, how the times have changed, eh? I remember when we lived under the same household. Even if the households were pieces of shit, we stuck together through it all. It seems kinda weird that we've been separated for so long, but despite that, we try to see eachother as much as possible, and try to bring up the good in our lives. 
    To Jordan, I can't believe my older sister is getting married next year. Trust me when I say I was as shocked as mom was when you announced it. It honestly makes me feel kinda old. No matter what though, you are my sister, I love you, and I'm happy for you in your upcoming wedding. I hope you and Kyle have a great future together, and remember to let your kids call up Uncle Hunt when they want to.

    To Colby, you're a brat. You're a brat and that honestly grates me.....but I can see that you are trying to grow up to be better. And I can see in you a true golden heart. I'll admit, I have not been the best brother that I should have been to you. In the upcoming future, I want to do that for you. You're going into the sixth grade, and that was when I had a hard time. I want you to avoid it or, if you can't, let it shape you into a better person. And for the time we missed together, I want to make up for it by helping you to become the best you can be. And no matter how much we grate on one another, you can always turn to me for help, because i'm your brother, I love you, and I always want you to be happy.

Dear past me:
    I know you have many regrets, as well as a lot of internal pain, but trust me, you're not as bad as you think you are; the hate you have towards yourself has been hammered into your head. You will eventually have a lot of pressure put onto you, but keep through it. Trust me when I say that you are meant for great things, and by completing them, you will not only help yourself, but help everyone that you can, and that will be what you want most in life.

Dear first love: 
    It has been three years already, hasn't it? Three years since we have admitted to loving eachother. And today we're still going strong. I know the struggles are long and hard. I'll admit, life's been giving us shit and we often get down. No matter what, though, I will never give up; I see a future for us. Something that we can shape for ourselves and our children once they come to be. And I never want to be away from you. In my future, I do see promises, but I see those promises with a very beautiful woman at my side. A woman that I want to give my heart and happiness to for the rest of my days. I love you, Ash, and I will always be with you.

Dear future me:
    You did it. It was a long and hard fight, but you did it. I want you to take a break from the desk you're sitting at if you're working right now and looking at this. Take your glasses off, take a deep breath and reflect; you've done a LOT. And seeing it all pay off will be truly satisfying. Hell, you may be seeing the pay off right now. I'm jealous of you, being able to see all of that right now. I cannot wait for the day when I can do that. And once I do, I'll do what this said to you, and I'll pass on these hopes and dreams to my children to help them go far in life as well. PS, give the misses a good kiss on the cheek for me.

Dear best friend(s):
    Honestly there are too many of you to count. And to each and every one of you, thank you; you have supported me in this long struggle to find my future, and I cannot begin to pay you for what you have done. Just know that to each and every one of you, from those I still see to those I will probably never see again, I hold each and every one of you in my heart and I will remember all of you to the day I am on my deathbed. Thank you.

Dear ex best friend:
    I know that you have done a lot of harm to me in the past. You turned on me and tormented me along with everyone else. You made my life a living hell....in a strange way I thank you, since it toughened me up and made me a better person. I know today you still regret doing all of that to me, but just hear me when I say I forgive you, and no matter what, you are still the first friend I have ever had. And we will always be friends, from the time we pushed each other on the swing set, to having another beer at a party. 

Dear future child:
    You are beautiful. You are the jewel of my life. I say many things about my life, but understand that what I say now is in no exaggeration. Even today, when you do not exist yet, I love you. I think about you every day, and the memories I will have with you and your mother. I dream of being there for you during your big events, you happy birthdays, and the moments you walk up on the stages of your accomplishments. I can go on and on, so just let me say this. You are my child, and I will be a father that will love and cherish you to the end of my days and beyond. I promise.

Dear person I hate:
    Hate is strong, but I truly dislike you. You have harmed not only me, but the rest of my family in too many ways imaginable. You have let your sloth and irresponsibility cause hundreds of problems, and have left us to clean up the mess. I do not hate you, but I have no love for you in my heart. I wish for no ill will against you, but I do wish that you would find your own path away from us and either turn for the better, or never come back.

Dear person I love:
    I have already relayed my message to you, but I can repeat it over and over for the cosmos to hear. My love for you will echo through time and space and will never miss a beat. All you need to do is come to me and ask me how much my love is for you, and I would answer you with all of my heart everytime.

Dear Celebrity crush:
    You're not my crush anymore and I'm actually kinda avoiding talking about you since you're in a lot of crap in recent years. Still, wish for the best.

Dear future husband:
    ......okay, I know my wife, and I know for certain she doesn't have THAT in her dress.

Dear people that hate me:
    Go on hating me. I'll admit, i've made plenty of mistakes, i'll continue to make them and I'm not the perfect person in the world. Any scorn or hate directed towards me though, I will ignore; what has shaped me and helped me move forward so much is not your words, but my friends, love, family and resolve. Your words did not help, nor did they hinder. I will continue to walk as they fall on deaf ears.

Dear people that love me:
    In a sense, I feel that your love is misguided; it could go to someone so much better. Still, thank you so much for giving me this love and helping me through life. Just know that this love is returned to each and every one of you. Even in the time past I hope to see you all in the world after.